I worked hard to get to where I was in my career. I was making decent money, I had good benefits and perks and we could go on family vacations that I only dreamt of as a kid. And the doors of opportunities opened everywhere for us. I was proud of how far I had made it without the formal education or training normally necessary and I was blessed to have been given this opportunity by my bosses. But something was really wrong. I was miserable.
I struggled to get the work done which stressed me out because I have perfectionist tendencies. I’m very dominant right-brained – creative, intuitive, and feeling but was working in what I felt was a left-brained industry. My creative and innovative side was dying to escape. I also need freedom and flexibility and struggled to deal with the strict policies and time frames. I love helping people and making their lives better but felt my work wasn’t giving me any of that.
This led to misery. I dreaded Monday through Friday. But spent weekends still miserable in anticipation of the following week. I lived for vacation time and sick days. On top of that, I was stressing myself to the point where my health was affected. I suffered from chronic migraines, infection after infection, constant colds and an autoimmune disease that flared up when the stress got too high.
I loved the lifestyle we had, but it was costing me a lot more than I cared to lose. I craved to unleash my creativity. I love personal development and I desperately wanted to pursue a career that allowed me to grow and to help others to grow.
Walking away had a cost. But so did staying.
I chose to follow my heart and left. It was probably one of the hardest decisions I didn’t want to make. After all, I worked so hard to get to where I was. We were in a good financial position and were secure.
But time is so precious. And life is so short and unpredictable. I don’t want to have regrets and so much time has passed already that I could have easily stayed but it was just delaying the inevitable.
If this resonates with you, weigh the costs. If you’re staying at a job because you don’t want to start a job search, the money is good, you like the status, but are miserable, ask yourself if it’s worth it. You may still answer yes in which case a simple perspective change may be all you need, but if the answer is no, this is something worth exploring.
What is the cost of your happiness / freedom / flexibility or whatever it is that you are are longing for?